Hi, I lost my mom 10 months ago. I did IADC in CA, and my experience wasn't what I read about in Dr. Botkin's book.

I did end up in a trance like state, an altered conciousness, and it was a pleasant though strange experience. I felt energy in my body, surging through my body, and tingling in my arms. I also felt warmpth surrounding, almost enveloping my body.

I felt like my body was very heavy, but I also felt, simultaniously, a lifting (I know that sounds contradictory). It was as if someone (I hoped it was my mom) was trying to "lift me" out of my sadness, and burden.

Lastly, I felt sommething I've never experienced; I felt as if I was coming out the top of my head. I did NOT have an out of body expeience, but, felt this lifting, and it felt distinctly like the energy or force was coming out the top of my head. It was as if someone was vacumming me out the top of my head. I never did come out of my body, but I felt that energy in there.

I felt pressure around my face and neck. Nothing unpleasent, just something physical. When Dr. Carl Totton asked me to lift my arms and move my arms back and forth in the air, my arms felt extremely heavy, and the air felt dense, and it was hard to move my arms back and forth. I know that sounds strange too, but that was my experience.

I was hoping for something visual. I was hoping to see my mom clearly, as many if not most of the IADC's in Dr. Botkin's book describe. I was hoping she would look at me and talk to me.

I did "feel" her words, in my head, but it was my voice, not hers. It was if the words were just being communicated to me, but I never heard her voice. I hope it was her, but, I can't help but wonder if I was making it up.

The most amazing thing about this whole process was the "altered" state I was in. This I KNOW I did not make up.

Can those who are reading this who have experince with IADC's tell me if this sounds like an IADC? I don't know what to make of it.

Thanks for reading this, and thanks in advance for any opinions!

Stephanie in CA